tara marie;

nyc. 21 years young. worldy. don't really use tumblr much.
Nov 17 '10
last night, i went out. it was the first time i had gone clubbing in months. first bar, then club. on a tuesday. reminded me of how i was this time last year. i was working and going to school, but it was so half-assed. i was going out like 3 nights a week, and slacking on school. when i got to the club, i just sat there. my friend went to get a bottle, and i just sat there. he knew everyone, saying hi to everyone, giving people money, and being cool, lol. i felt like such a nerd, i sat there with my jacket on and my scarf and just watched people have fun. in the back of my head, i was wishing i was home, asleep. i just kept thinking about work, and all the things i had to do tomorrow. i love that i have focus now. i’m twenty, with a mindset of an established 30 year old. i see people my age running around the streets, doing NOTHING with their lives, or working some $9/hr job, and i’m just like damn. i was there, though. i worked those bs retail jobs, but never again. i don’t know many people my age with my drive. i still like my going out life, drinks, friends, wasting money on night life, of course. but, there’s so much more in my near future, and the rest of my life. my life is amazing, i cannot complain about the little things that bother me because i’m so blessed. <3

last night, i went out. it was the first time i had gone clubbing in months. first bar, then club. on a tuesday. reminded me of how i was this time last year. i was working and going to school, but it was so half-assed. i was going out like 3 nights a week, and slacking on school. when i got to the club, i just sat there. my friend went to get a bottle, and i just sat there. he knew everyone, saying hi to everyone, giving people money, and being cool, lol. i felt like such a nerd, i sat there with my jacket on and my scarf and just watched people have fun. in the back of my head, i was wishing i was home, asleep. i just kept thinking about work, and all the things i had to do tomorrow. i love that i have focus now. i’m twenty, with a mindset of an established 30 year old. i see people my age running around the streets, doing NOTHING with their lives, or working some $9/hr job, and i’m just like damn. i was there, though. i worked those bs retail jobs, but never again. i don’t know many people my age with my drive. i still like my going out life, drinks, friends, wasting money on night life, of course. but, there’s so much more in my near future, and the rest of my life. my life is amazing, i cannot complain about the little things that bother me because i’m so blessed. <3