tara marie;

1. What was the last thing you did with a friend? Took the train home and watched girls act stupid drinking 4 lokos.
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? Absolutely not.
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? I don’t know.
4. Do you like crowds? Not at all, I get anxiety around large groups of people.
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? What? Yuck.
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? I don’t think so.
7. What exactly are you wearing right now? Bright green American Apparel sweat pants, a white thermal, undies.
8. How often do you listen to music? Every day.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? Sweats I think. Baggy jeans a lot, though.
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012? Probably not.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? Both, I guess.
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘B’? Not that I can think of. OH WAIT, yes, I have lol.
13. What about ‘S’? Yeah.
14. Can you drive a stick shift? Nope, I see it being done in Ireland and it looks super hard.
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? I used to, now I don’t really care.
16. Are you going out of town soon? February, Europe!
17. When was the last time you cried? Today.
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? Love?
19. If you could change your eye color, would you? No.
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? Yes. But just because I can’t help but care about certain people. Eventhough they don’t deserve it.
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. Today has kind of sucked actually. Not finding my keys drove me nuts today.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? Eh. I’m heartless, nothing is cute.
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? No.
24. What are you sitting on right now? Laying on my bed.
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? Yes.
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? I guess.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Jess.
28. Do you get a lot of colds? Yeah. :(
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? American Apparel.
30. Does anyone hate you? Absolutely.
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? Hidden? I wouldn’t have to hide them, but no, I don’t.
32. Do you like watching scary movies? Not really.
33. Do you want your tongue pierced? Gross.
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2010.
35. Did you have a dream last night? I forget.
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Today.
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? No.
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Yes, I know.
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? No.
40. Did you have a good day yesterday? It was okay.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? No.
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? Probably.
44. What’s the best part about school? I’m not in school right now.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? Yeah.
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? I used to, lol.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? Yes.
48. Were you single over the last summer? I was in Ireland all summer with leprechauns. Yes!
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? Yes.
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? Sleeping!
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? Brian.
52. Are you nice to everyone? No.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yes.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Yes.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? Yes and no.
56. Do you think you like someone? I don’t.
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘T’? Yes. Yesss.
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? Boys usually.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? Duh.
60. Do you hate anyone? No.
61. How’s your heart? Beating at the moment.
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? Yes.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy? Not a guy I was interested in, but like a friend, yes.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? Some fat fuck on Twitter.
65. Are your toenails painted pink? Not right now. They’re ‘Licorice’ by Essie. :)
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? I dunno.
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? Gay.
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? Haha, I don’t think so.
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? Edlyn last night? Idk.
70. How do you look right now? Yikes.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? Yes.
72. Can you commit to one person? No.
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? I used to.
74. Have you ever felt replaced? Yes. YES.
75. Did you wake up cranky? Probably, I don’t remember.
76. Are you a jealous person? No.
77. Are relationships ever worth it? I guess.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on? No.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone? No.
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? Lots of things. Tomorrow is gonna be too packed.
81. Last person you cried in front of? Either my mom or Genesis.
82. Is there someone you will never forget? Yes.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? I don’t have feelings for anyone.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? Uh.
85. Are you over your past? I am.
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? Yes.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? Yes.
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? I can’t say that I’ve ever been in love.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? Lol, yeah, we’re cool.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Yes.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? No.
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? Yes.
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? I don’t think so.
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? No.
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? Why is this all about liking people?
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? Genesis? Lol, yes she is.
97. Who do you have texts from? A lot of people.
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? I don’t like anyone. This survey is gay. I need to go to sleep.
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Always.
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? Myself.
101. Ever kissed under fireworks? No.
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? This was the biggest waste of 10 minutes.

LOOK AT DUBLIN RIGHT NOW GUYS!!!!!!!!!!

fuckyeahfavouritethings:

Dundrum Town Centre -

Finglas [Only in Ireland ;)] -

Rathcoole -

Along the Quays -

Dolphin’s Barn -

Crumlin -

Bayside Train Station -

Kilnarden, Tallaght -

Luas Station in the City Centre -

Donnycarney -

Clontarf Road -

Tallaght -

Walkinstown -

Kilnamanagh -

Dun Laoghaire Sea Front -

Broombridge Train Station -

Milltown -

Dingle Road, Cabra -

Dublin Airport -

sorry i told, i just needed you to know, i think in decimals and dollars. i am the cause to all your problems. shelter from cold, you are never alone. coordinate brain and mouth then ask me what it’s like to have my self so figured out, 

wish i knew.

this is war.

been this way since 18, but lately: her face seems, slowly sinking, wasting, crumbling like pastries. they scream: the worst things in life comes free to us. and we’re ooh, under the upper hand, go mad for a couple grams. don’t wanna go outside tonight. in a pipe, fly to the motherland. sell love to another man. it’s too cold outside for angels to fly. an angel will die, covered in white.

time to reevaluate.

I take so much for granted. I fight with my mom all the time, I don’t appreciate her. I even convince myself sometimes that I don’t love her, but I do. I let my anger get the best of me, our relationship is awful. Today, my friend’s mom died. It made me realize how I should never take those I love for granted, but it’s hard. If my mom or dad died, I wouldn’t know what to do. I wouldn’t be able to function, I’d lose it.

I hate that tomorrow isn’t promised to me, I hate even more that it’s not promised to people I love. It makes me think about all the people I’ve cut out of my life. I don’t hate anyone, I can’t. If any of my enemies were to die, I’d feel awful. Death is such a scary thing, I’m more scared of losing those I love than I am to lose my own life. I just ordered flowers to be sent to his house, and I started crying when I was looking through all the beautiful options. I invisioned myself having to do it for my own mother. I know eventually that day is going to come, and I hope it’s not for many years. My mom tells me all the time she thinks she’s dying. She’s 58, which isn’t old. She always brings up how women in her family have a tendancy of dying young. When my mom was 19, her mom died, and she was only 42. My aunt died when I was in the 8th grade, and her daughter was also 19. It’s so scary.

Life is too short to not tell the people you love how much you love them. I’d never wish death of a loved one on anybody in the world.

Hustlin’ cupcakes.

A few weeks ‘til I’m FINALLY 21. No more knowing someone who knows someone to get in somewhere, or a fake ID or any BS. YAY! I have to book my flight on Tuesday for my European summer adventure. Shit! It’d be easier if money grew on trees so I wouldn’t have to pretend my paychecks don’t exist so I can save them for travel money. Oh, and in the last week — karma bit me in my butt, big time. TWICE. Whatever, I’m gonna leave these clowns in the hood, where they belong and keep doing great shit. I’m making great/easy money working at a cupcake place, so I can save up some extra for summer. I never use this, but then I write stuff once in a while, and then read it months later and love re-reading about things from a while back. It’s cool. Anyway.